Potential

Potential adj. 'Having or showing the capacity to develop  into something in the future'

The electricity emanates from my fingers as I pour my soul out into what I write;
Writhing through my neuroses the thoughts that nothing is going right ...
So what do do?
Take away the shell and the actions and what are you left with?
Doubt
One man, against the world.
Looking for Eden, reaching for my Eve
Extending myself over the abyss of the past ...
Hoping to pull her into the future.
My arms.

Not strong enough.

A sisyphean task
Pushing against this fucking rock
Getting somewhere before it rolls back
What have I done to ...
Nah, I do deserve this. So I pay my penance to the gods
Wherever they are ...
Mocking
Laughing
Making snide comments
Still I push

Alone for now ... But hope is unreigned

Only I'm bound by this chain
These ... Insecurities
So what of potential?
The ability of future greatness.
I hate this.
But ...
But what?

I'm but a man.
The butt of the eternal joke;
Giving your all for nothing.
Potential blessings.
A literal curse.
Cursing I mean... Endless arguments leading back to day one

Trust?

I 'hope' for it, even as I thrust my sword into the heart of our latest disagreement;
Knowing that for each problem slain, there are a hundred more.
So who am I?
A child of man. Sisyphean men.
I've chosen my battle,
Now to fight it.

En Garde!